Ward D - Frieda McFadden #4 (spoiler)
After Chapter 40
Now that Amy believes Will could be Jade's boyfriend I am a bit taken aback. Haha. Her reasoning is quite week apart from the fact that they came at the exact same day, we kind of don't need much more... but I don't know.
A few questions popped up.
- Why would Jade tell Amy to date her own boyfriend?
- Why would they put them next to each other? Aren't their rooms too close? I mean they committed a crime together and doesn't it mean they're bad influence on each other? I'm sure they'd consider this even if that is the last two free rooms on the ward.
Now, I don't really believe they really are a couple.
After Chapter 41
Finished chapter 41. and... Oho.. it confirmed my earlier suspicion about Jade and Will. I mean Ramona confirmed it, so... I wonder what the plan is. Now that this is established, I wouldn't trust what Will says about the blood. They clearly have a plan and it doesn't seem like a friendly plan. I'm a bit disappointed.
After Chapter 49.
Will seem to genuinely say the truth according to Amy.
And what if Amy is right and he is really telling her the truth? I think, I want to believe him.
Another possibility. What if Will has DID? Will's one persona has paranoid schizophrenia while the other doesn't know a thing and he's frightened? I know DID has nothing to do with schizophrenia but they might as well live together? Or his diagnosis might be wrong and he has DID that looks like something else. I think it's not the easiest to diagnose.
Hm.. I actually don't believe that. But I'm also not sure that he'd attack Mary. And I'm almost sure that he wouldn't.
And that giggly Jade boils my blood. That bad acting deceived Amy, but not me.
Okay.. I think Ramona tells the truth about Jade and Will. Why would she lie. Unless... I think she's suspicious. But I think Will says the truth. But if they're both telling the truth, that can only be possible if both truths exist alongside each other?
But anyway... it's just that I want to believe him. Even if his story is wild so I might be building all kind of theories to support his story.
And also because I still think everything is happening because of Jade... even though the childhood friend turned out to be innocent in the previous book (Not like that matters here). But Jade is different.
I don't know. I'm confused.. I think it will end with Amy having to spend time on Ward D herself T_T if not all of this was just her being a patient.
But no, actually. I still suspect Jade. What would be a better revenge than making her believe she can not trust herself?
After Chapter 50
Amy still believes Will. I'm ready to believe shared hallucination as I previously also guessed this.
But Dr. Beck not answering Amy about Cameron and just dismissing her worries with shared delusions is rude. No outright unprofessional.
I also wouldn't be surprised if what happened to Mary was actually Jade's doing. We already know she's capable of physically hurting others.
After Chapter 51.
I'm just finished chapter 51 and What The Actual Fuck! She should have checked that folder at the beginning of the night.
And whether Damon escaped the seclusion room or not, it is either Jade or Damon who attacked Mary.
One question here. What does this have to do with Ramona? Why did she confirm Will and Jade? Because this is clearly not true. I don't know, I'm starting to suspect that she is one of their friend or family. Probably Will is right not to trust her too. And thinking back to Spider-Dan... where is he? Did he really, see Damon out of the seclusion room? Does he know what he looks like?
It doesn't mean Will isn't paranoid or anything. But opens up new possibilities.
and Jade you bitch😂
After Chapter 52
Just finished chapter 52.. Oh my god the Dr Beck we knew is Damon Sawyer! I'm sure. And where is the real Dr Beck and who Ramona is? Is she the real Ramona or replaced too? Probably both lying dead somewhere.
I knew it. Will was right all along.
But how come the patients didn't realize it's not him? How come Will had been on the Ward since Jade was and he doesn't recognize Dr. Beck as Damon? He also witnessed his outrage. Ah this is weird, and not adding up at all.
After the Last Chapter
Just finished the entire thing..
I was sooooo happy to see Will alive. And it was a damn good ending for them together.
And I would definitely say the last few pages were the best thing in the whole book, but unfortunately it's quite easy to attack.
I mean after that chapter when Jade wanted to kill the teacher, she explicitly said that she never saw the girl again. Now she admits not only seeing her but also following her guidance. Of course it was a bit suspicious that despite her knowing herself, she instantly believed that she hallucinated the blood for example.
But still.. that last turn would have been stronger if she's not claiming that she never seen the little girl again at least twice before.
As for the Spider-Dan detail. It is lovely that they became friends. He was the only one who actually kept his word and protected Amy. Poor Cam died, and Will was sedated.
Even the little emotional string attached to Cameron. The dental floss idea (I'm going to the bathroom to test this though, because I'm not convinced that dental floss could strangle a strong guy) and later the ring dings... honestly the last few chapters made my heart do a bit of an overtime, haha.
I liked the book and it was very interesting, also made me think. It didn't give me however the involvement the Inmate did. Somehow I often felt like Amy and I would never even be friends while I really felt some kind of closeness with Brooke.
But I don't think I should compare the two. The first will be my favourite forever.
Maybe there are other holes. I think the last chapter was finished a lot later than the rest of the book and I think the way Cameron and Amy met and how Cameron's girlfriend left the party after an argument has change at the end to "being drugged" and these two things can't be mistaken. Not the way it was told us.
She could have done better for her friend but even if she didn't at the time, she had a second chance. But she didn't want to live with it.
I kept feeling myself closer to Jade who was an outcast misunderstood teen with no help. And even her best friend is an asshole to her, making her feel less with all those reactions.
That focusing on constant learning and the morality that comes with it...while by the end it turns out even she herself doesn't care about her own code of conduct? And that hate towards Cameron while he was never actually rude or bad to her is just weird. It's an obvious overreaction like he should be with her therefore he is a bad person.
While Amy never actually loves him, just wants him and at the beginning she tells this story like it just happened to happen. Because Cameron happened to see her, and she didn't feel anything just went with the flow... except, at the end she admits that she drugged his girlfriend. I don't know what to make of this inconsistency.
And I didn't really like how she thought of the patients. She often seemed to look down on them, dismiss their concern even if she believed some of it, she pushed it away because they were "only" patients. The way she wanted to compare herself to the patients to convince herself that she is "normal" and "not like them". I didn't find her a very likeable character after all.
I liked some small details. For example that Mary and Miguel knew Dr Beck that's why they were raging. Also the small detail that she called Amy Nicole because she was in staff clothing.
Details that only make sense after you know everything.
But! There was this small detail when Mary said Dr Beck is good looking and Amy should date him. Would she say something like that if she knows that he is Damon Sawyer and this is why she gives Amy a knitting needle?
I don't think so... she was clear minded enough to know the whole thing is wrong. I wonder if she just assumed Amy should know that Dr. Beck is an old man and that was a subtle message? No, I'm reading extra into it.
But Amy only realizing that there wasn't a loud noise when "Cameron left" after everything was over is a bit wild. I kept thinking about that detail.